I responded to P’s email. I told him that I was surprised to hear from him. I told him that I was hoping to hear from him after he hung up on me and that the timing was just bad. However after several days of no response, I accepted the alternative. I also told him that I hope we do get a chance to talk, that we need to.
A couple days went by and I got a reply on Saturday….a reply that is beyond insulting.
“Hi Baby, Never think the worse, you should know better than that…..”
Followed by some general comments and ending with I am really missing you.
Are you fucking kidding me?!?!? I should know better than that! Well let’s see, you disappeared into thin air after proclaiming your deep feelings for me…not once but twice. You ignored the couple of voicemails I left over the last year and didn’t answer the one email I sent and provided no explanation for the year of silence….and I should know better than to think the worse?!?! I wasn’t thinking the worse but accepting the new reality, asshole.
I can’t even comprehend that statement from him. It is so baffling to me that he thinks I have no reason to think the worse. I think there is a clinical name for people like this.
I haven’t decided whether or not to respond. Part of me wants to and enlighten him on his screwed up view. However, I’m not a confrontational person. My response would be passive aggressive. Would I love to send him the words I wrote above? Of course, but that’s not my style and would be a step down for me. Plus why give him the satisfaction of knowing he has that impact on me. Although the response is negative, it also shows a lot of feeling that would only come from someone who still cared. And he knows that about me. He will know the deeper feeling behind the surface level anger.
In all honesty, it’s probably better that he sends stupid, condescending comments like that. It’s almost like someone is saying “you didn’t want to see the arrogance and selfishness in his actions, so I’m going to reinforce those same behaviors in written format”.