This appeared in my inbox today.
A week ago, I told P. I wanted to believe his words but his contradictory actions make it challenging. I told him I was getting tired.
I am getting tired and ready to give up. One can only give so many chances, the bucket eventually empties.
This appeared in my inbox. I can hear it screaming at me to pay attention to the message.
…exactly what I longed for years ago.
I spent my 20’s in an abusive, violent relationship. 10 years of pure hell. My now husband was my co-worker during that time. He was so kind, understanding, nice. I saw how he treated his girlfriend and I longed to have that…to be in his girlfriend’s place.
Fear froze me in that abusive relationship. I never ever thought I would have the kind of relationship I longed for. But miracles happen…
I was freed from the abuse and violence. My husband’s relationship ended sometime before that. Even though we no longer worked together, fate reconnected us. I found myself in the exact spot I always dreamt of. I was now in the loving arms of this kind, understanding man. I was no longer living in fear. Life was great.
I don’t want to spoil what I have….it was once my heart’s desire and if I stop focusing on what I don’t have, I think I’ll see that it still is my heart’s desire.
My Journey Through Life 